…Is It’s Own Reward!

Time for a confession dearest Readers! Today I have cried more than I have ever cried watching a movie in a long time! That movie is of course ‘Logan’. This is the final time we will ever get to see Hugh Jackman play this wonderful character, hell, I think even Mr Stewart!

The very first movie I watched in cinemas was 2000’s X-men! Since then I have watched every movie because of Wolverine. If there are others too who grew up with these characters then  I warn you before hand if you have not watched this movie yet. Take some tissues with you! Do not be embarrassed when you break down while watching this movie! Everyone who is not new to these characters (and even those who are) will not even put up a fight! You are all going to cry your eyes out!

Why old fans, well, for me I was not crying because of what I was seeing on the screen but rather what the consequences and implications of what was being said and shown is what made me completely break down!

If you are only into this now, you will not appreciate Professor X and Wolverine’s relationship. You will not understand what they are feeling in the events of this movie. You will not fully grasp their inner conflict or the hidden meanings in their words they exchange!

For example, the moment that hit me the most was during a certain scene when the WTF moment happened and we finally saw what the evil organisation’s ‘success’ experiment was that saw them give orders to terminate the kids. What will make most, especially the new ones cry is not why I was crying. It was the implied and the unfortunate!

Okay, this is a spoiler so stop here if you do not want to know.

When Xavier died, it was not his death that broke me but rather what he implied just before the ‘success’ killed him and then the fact after. I never read the books so I had no idea but we find out (it is implied) that Professor X is the one that killed off all the mutants. Yeah, let that sink in your brains! If you are attached to these characters as I am then you think of all those people that Xavier cared for, all those people that believed in him, loved him and he snuffed them all out just like that!

Like, what even…

Logan survived obviously because of his abilities and physicality.

So all this time they have been surviving while Logan tried to both protect Xavier and the world because his brain was now a weapon of mass destruction! Seriously, when Professor X lost control I was truly terrified. They showed off his un-surpassed abilities perfectly.

And all this time he did not know what he had done. Both is own mind and the medicine that Logan had been giving him made him forget and prevent him from remembering what he had done because, man, can you imagine what he had done if he had remembered?

But he did remember, and just as he was confession to Logan, just as they were about to get that respite especially Logan, who had to live with this secret all by himself, the truth being spoken would have saved them both at least a handful of trauma but guess what happened…Xavier was talking to the wrong Logan. It was another clone of his and just as Xavier had finished his confession that would have been able to surely give Logan some much needed peace, he took three adamantium claws to the chest!

So Logan still doesn’t know that Charles knows. He did not get to hear his confession and Charles did not get to lift that burden off his last pupil. They were robbed off that! But at least Charles did not die thinking that Logan was the one to kill him. That would have been completely savage!

To close up, it was not that Charles died  that made me cry but the fact that he had killed all of the mutants off, the fact that Logan knew and was saving him from finding out. The fact that Logan knew and he still cared for the Professor so much. The fact that they were robbed of the chance to leave this heavy burden aside between them.

And this is just one example!

So yeah, I cried so much I was wiping my face in the cinema like I was six or something. This movie was so good. So good that it totally failed at what it went out to do! That is that it was supposed to let go of Hugh Jackman’s Wolverine but now I want him even more than I have ever wanted him! Looks like this is it for me! Without him I have no more interest in this universe.

God, this is just like Idol graduation! I mean the man has been playing the character for 17 years!!!! I should give him some slack. But hey, five more fans will take my place when I leave as they follow these new Gens but for me Hugh is Wolverine, Famke is Jean, Patrick is Professor X, Ian is Magneto, Halle is Storm, Anna is Rogue, James is Cyclops! These are my X-men and if this really is Wolverine’s last stand, then I am done too.

Thank you Fox, you got me into action movies with your first X-men movie but without Hugh, I have no business being here either, so, goodbye. We had a nice ride together, you and I!

Goodbye!