The love I had for Hayami Akari is really scaring me. I mean it’s been years since she left and I am still not over her! Even while MomocloZ seems to be hitting the right mark as months go by, I am still fighting to get back into them and truthfully, haven’t succeeded yet.
Whenever I see a vid of MomocloZ, I always go back to my old Momoclo videos and re-watch those! I am a sad excuse for a person, aren’t! No one has ever affected me like she has with her leave! Just remembering her relationship with Kanako and how Kanako was back then it just…gah!
Better leave before I start emo-ing again. Jump ahead for more gifs…
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百合 Fever 
September 5, 2013 at 11:25
WHY!!!!! WHY MUST YOU KEEP BRINGING THIS BACK UP!!!!!!!!
This for me is still up there as saddest graduation so far in the time I’ve been an idol fan (as it stands now of course) I mean she and Kanako were so good together but also she was great with the groups so her graduation was like a double whammy all on her own! And to think it happened right before Momoclo fully took off to where they are now…… I admit, when I watch the concerts etc they do now, even now my mind wanders to wondering what it would be like if Akari was doing these concerts too
And maybe that’s it, Akari could so be there and maybe it’s that feeling that she left before her time (unlike say Itano Tomomi for example) that makes it harder to except for me……
May 28, 2014 at 01:19
I know it’s late (Really late) but this post just suddenly gained views and I was forced to open it up again, and of course with it came that sweet pain I have come to know so dearly!
Yep, still not over Akari. I have forgotten about anyone else who has graduated, well, the pain of their graduation but not Akari. Every time I see a photo of her on tumblr, every time I see MomocloZ’s, the pain hits me all over again. Akari, what are you?! How can you affect me so?
I apologise again for bringing this back up but…God! I am so happy now that even management was so affected by Akari’s leave that they changed the group’s very name even banning blue from ever being used because I am not sure how I would have taken it had someone else…
Sigh