I have been showing some symptoms of FAIL WOTA in that Sashiko has been getting on my nerves ever since she left Team B. The signs were almost reaching uncomfortable levels for me in that I never want to have feelings of dislike about anyone and Sasshi has been pushing the boundaries. Even her going crazy over Yukirin during request Hours did not seem to help in the least.
Until last night
Let me talk about something else for starters
I don’t really know what it is about this year but I have dreamt about five…FIVE! Idols this year alone…Out of the SIX Idol dreams I’ve had since I was born! The first one ever was about Miichan – none other than Minegishi Minami. The next was about an actress actually – Kawaguchi Haruna, then came Nana – NMB’s Yamada Nana, Yuria-peace followed suit, then TGS’s Aachan – Konishi Ayano, after her, just two weeks ago actually, it was my sweet, sweet Ji-yeon.
Last night was Sashiko
No, no….None of these were wet dreams. Strange I know, but true. Well, the one about Aachan was kinda….
Ahem
Any way, last night I met Sashiko in person (kind of) and she didn’t turn out to be that bad. In fact I was prompted to find ways in being as close as possible to her which turned out to be quite a strange experience. It was like falling in love for the first time…again.
That is if I believed in something as obscure as love.
The bottom line is that my view and feeling on Sashiko took a U-turn last night and now I find myself splitting face whenever I see her instead of growling internally.
Could dreams be the cure for hate?
Maybe…
More Sashiko
百合 Fever 
October 21, 2012 at 18:12
Oh yes… Dreams have a tendency to fill us up with feelings we never expect… Usually these feelings are only temporally and they just vanish without trace, leaving behind nothing but a blurry memory. So in your case it was about not liking her much but in the dream you found out that she has some qualities you treasure? I hope I got that correctly…
Let me put a little scientific description here about dreams. When you have a conflict with someone, your bran goes stressed out, so basically it is restless unless it finds a way to relieve this
stress. There are some extreme cases when – lets say – a female office worker has a quarrel her boss whom she hates from the heart. Then when this woman gets home, and finally gets into the bet for a good night sleep she has a very intensive sexual dream with her boss going all out. Now what does this means? This is one way the human brain relieves the stress it accumulated during the day. This doesn’t mean that that woman wants her boss to be her sex-mate nor she is in secret love with him.
What I’m trying to say here is that you have a little stress accumulated from the negative feelings towards Sasshi aka disliking her. This dislike turned into a stress which slowly accumulated until its presents cannot be ignored anymore. With this in account your brain made you dream with her to relieve this stress. The question is how much of the real Sasshi was in your dream and how much of it was your brains/hearts creation from it.
I had similar “stress relieving” dreams in the past, mostly with Atsuko because of the tension generated by that Love-Hate duality I had with her. (But I did not have any similar dreams with Shimada Haruka, whom I basically dislike the most from this whole 48 project. Maybe because I don’t really care about her in a daily basis.)
But returning to our topic Sasshi does have something inside her nonetheless, which keeps you from leaving her side. Something about you wanting to be in her company even though you did not fall for her at the first sight. Her face is just boring-looking, nothing special in her body features either, nothing spectacular in any way, she’s nothing like Yukirin, Rena, Mayu, Saya-nee – just to name a few. But there’s some strange force that draws you close to her, dreaming or awake.
Actually I was about to completely change the ranking system I had in my head but when I saw this post I’m re-evaluating again. There was/is a reason behind why was/is Sasshi on my second spot, and why can’t I leave her side. She is nothing, like TakaMina, nothing like Yui or even Jurina. But when I ask myself again why did I chose her to be the second, I get the answer, that it has the same reason as why is Moeno on the third place currently. They lean towards normal girls more, and that’s what I find the most attractive in them. Sasshi is more famous because of her crazy attitude which does or doesn’t suit others’ likings…
Anyway it seems like this dream of yours turned your head towards her and I am a little happy about it. “Eyes on the prey not on the horizon…” 🙂
And finally, yes, I returned! The wall of texts are back! 😀
October 21, 2012 at 18:25
Oh, how I missed thee, WALL O TEXT!
:XD
Any way, if there is a thing that I would forever never underestimate, it’s the brain.
I have had dreams before that just made me sit there for hours and try to understand what the brain really is.
Dreams that are so intelligent, at least seem so intelligent that I simply know there is no way I would think of those things in real life. So I sit there and wonder what would happen if I could only remember or even find a way to bring these thoughts from dreams into the reality!
Therefore, I am not questioning the legity of Sasshi’s real qualities in the dreams as opposed to the real Sashiko. I can just see it and when compared to the qualities I’ve seen of her already, everything adds up. Of course my brain could just be using my memories of what I know to come up with the personality of dream Sashiko but the depth of the breakdown is so complete that I want to get down on my knees and praise my brain.
The other dreams I’ve had about Idols had their personalities almost to the T but of course, I’ve never met the real girls so how to know?!
That doesn’t mean that I would doubt my brain. I would if I was awake but when it comes to dreams, somehow things are different.
I am trying to figure out a way now to use dreams in revision for my tests. I am actually kinda, 1.3% there.
October 21, 2012 at 19:25
Well I have a theory about confirming the realism of a character in a dream. It’s about the feeling you feel when you are interacting with them in your dream. If you feel different about them then they definitely are not the real person. Usually your brain uses people you’re familiar with to deliver the message. If there was a random stranger in your dream than you would probably forget about them once you wake up. (A little side note here that if you wake up while your brain is in the REM state than it have the highest chance for you to remember your dream. If you wake up after this state is over than you simply forget everything… sometimes the feelings stay, but you will never be able to remember what caused them…)
But dreams are good because sometimes they show you different perspectives about things or people. That includes even yourself. 🙂 Basically your dreams show what kind of person you can be if you wish. I know some of that stuff is over-saturated, but there is a reason for that. If it wasn’t over-saturated – your dream I meant – then it would be boring and with that you wouldn’t remember jack sh*t about it. I used to say that “In your dreams you can be the true yourself, because you are in an environment capable of supporting you 100%.” So in short this is called “The ideal world”.
October 21, 2012 at 20:12
Certain schools of psychology consider dreams as a suppression of the real desires and personality of the person, others just as our dear text-waterfall friend–welcome back!- are ways to release stress and another considers it a portal to another dimension beats me, I care neither! I’ve had enough with dreams and extra-corporeal experiences…But a concrete fact about dreams is that they turn the input of any topic into motion images, from the occult perspective also a bit of energy of those involved, that’s why dreams can be pretty compelling and give you a rather good reading of a person. I still rather avoid having another ESP or empathetic or sync or what-ever it is called, at least until I get over the last…Yes still fresh…Acchan…
October 21, 2012 at 20:32
Actually I was wondering about this Other Dimension business…
All of us probably have had dreams of near-death experiences, right? Most notably, the long fall ones.
But we always wake up just before that drop…That very unpleasant yet known experience.
And so that got me thinking…What if this is what happens when people die? I mean just before you drop, your mind/Sprint leaves your body and thus gets reborn or transferred into a a newly born human/creature.
What if these near-death dreams were actually our previous incarnations’ way of death?
Oh shi….
I should write a book about this, I would be famous!
October 21, 2012 at 20:46
Me, actually I rarely dream-almost never-, so my answer is NO! Based on Buddhism, only when you reach Nirvana, will you become aware of past, present and future in fully. You need to study a lot to understand the concept of reincarnation…If you ever decide to write a book about it, I’ll gladly help! I do study a bit of the occult and Buddhist concepts, so I may help.
October 21, 2012 at 20:52
I was only kidding. ^^
But buddism is only a small portion of belief and just another take on re–incarnation. Which is just another of many mysteries. For all we know, my idea might even be the truthful one really >_>
I on the other hand doubt that that question will ever be answered. It’s just…out there.
October 21, 2012 at 20:53
Oh man, so far we went from simply praising Sashiko, LOL! But I have to sort of agree with what Shiro said about the dreams helping see things you failed to see while you were awake. But let’s not jump into the different dimensions or spiritual side of things as you wouldn’t be able to stop my text floods. 😀
I could write books about the supernatural dreams I had in the past… wait… I already did! 😀 And don’t even start about reincarnation… “Dreams are like reincarnation…” ♪ 😀
October 22, 2012 at 00:53
Couldn’t agree more! My opinion of Sasshi is rather scarce, sure she has some of those ‘cool’ moments, but I never really decided to get my magnification glass on her…I got a high opinion of all members of Team B that performed B3 and B4, but it is obvious my concentration was floating around a certain gal!
October 22, 2012 at 01:52
Who? WHO!!!
Explain thy self Shiro. EXPLAIN!!! ლ(ಠ_ಠლ)
LOL
October 22, 2012 at 02:10
Well, Mikachii was a big hit with me, specially when she teamed-up with Yukirin, but the prior was only in B3–my all time favourite stage-so yes, I was completely absorbed by Yukirin! I mean not even the presence of Acchan stops your gaze from reaching Yukirin! During B3 is was always searching either of them or both, and during B4 I was all over Yukirin, so Sasshi wasn’t completely in my radar. At that period of time I was facing the dilemma Yukirin v Acchan v Mikachii as my oshi, well I’m still hunted by the fact I was never able to make a choice…
So in brief I didn’t care much about Sasshi back then because I was just trying to survive Yukirin’s absolute enchantment!
October 22, 2012 at 03:09
What do you mean you will never be able to make a choice? God helped you out by eliminating the other two factors. There is now only one choice! ¯(°_o)/¯
Just kiddin…maybe
But it wasn’t like finding Yukirin in any B stage was that hard. Sometimes it seemed to me that she (and Mayuyu) got almost half of the lines and were always at the center but that might have been my Yukirin EYE…not
October 22, 2012 at 04:31
It’s true that Yukirin took centre position in the most important songs from B1 until B4, Mayuyu taking more prominence in B5. Of course now it’s easy there is only Yukirin. I began my career as an AKB wota in 2006, just as it formed, and my I quickly fell in lines as an Acchan oshi, when team B was formed I changed residence from Yokohama to Kyoto, so I drastically reduced my AKB related activities as going to events or the theatre for that matter. My first B1, Mikachii was doing turn as an understudy, don’t recall who she replaced, and then there was Yukirin, it was like love at first sight with both, but I still was deeply in Acchan’s court. My eldest sister’s influence swayed me to Yukirin camp, but still I have to say if Yukirin is a 10 then Acchan is 9.99999999999999999999, you could say Mikachii was like 9.99999999999999999998.
But you’re right, now I’m devoted 100% to Yukirin!!! I really want to listen to the single she recorded with Acchan and Yuko for team surprise!
October 22, 2012 at 11:00
No to worry. We are almost there. M8 is already out, right? What was their number again? I totally forgot >.<
October 22, 2012 at 15:16
M09 so this week it is! It would awesome to see those three working together outside AKB, I mean their synergy is incredible!
October 30, 2012 at 18:28
I dreamt about Oshima Yuko once. She showed up at the store or something, and then all these fans were going nuts and I just stood there laughing at the reactions of the fans.
I’ve been liking Sasshi post-scandal. I didn’t care about the scandal, but she seems more down to earth after it so I’m good with it. Also Ikujinashi Masquerade is a fine song.
October 30, 2012 at 19:33
Yeah,
The scandal did her real good. She is somewhat back to the B-Sasshi a little so I guess it’s one of the reasons that my dream cheated me into liking her again
BTW, thanks for visiting and commenting kainzero! ^^